Grateful

This year is coming to a close, fast. Kinda faster than I anticipated. Had me, temporarily, doubting my decision. But I know, in my heart, that if I don't go now, on my terms, head up, with my boots on, so to speak, then I probably never will. In all honesty, I am grateful for all that wrestling has given me. I have stories and memories to last a few lifetimes. I have been privileged to perform, over these years, for so many thousands of fans, both here and across the country, in so many different venues. I remember being crammed into a small garage turned night club at 9th and Hunting Park with 300 screaming fans who barely spoke a word of English. I also remember 2000 fans packing the Legendary Blue Horizon to see George "the Animal" and to see me and my best friend annihilate one another in a Lumberjack Strap match.
I'm grateful for every rec center and high school gymnasium. Every Boys  Girls Club and church basement. Every VFW and fire hall. I'm grateful for every friend I've ever made and grateful to have known every friend we've all lost. If I've gained one bit of knowledge, that I can surely pass on, it's this; Wrestling is fickle. It's moody and it's temperamental. It can hold you high in one breath. A few seconds later, you're down, so to speak, for the count. But yet, and still we love this. In all of it's political lunacy and prima donna insanity.

 To quote a friend, there are those who get it, there are those who think that they get it and there are those who just never will. I'm grateful to have seen wrestling at it's highest and at times, it's lowest. In those times, however, I was still grateful to have been a part of this crazy game.

So, if this is/was my last ride, I just want to say thanks so much for everything. Every joy, every pain.  Every loss. Every lesson. Because through it all, I got to do so much more than most people ever do.
And I am truly, grateful.


"... I've been everywhere
Still I'm standin' tall
I've seen a million faces
And I've rocked them all"


R.

Bad Habit
So aware I am of the hold you have on me.
So afraid am I to walk away.
So resolute that I can't let go.

"Descending"

Have mercy baby
I'm descending again
Open your eyes
This time it's sink or it's swim
No sermons on ascending
No verdict on deceit
No selfish memorandum
No confusion for me
[Chorus:]
Curses
Curses and clues
A feast for fools
Have mercy baby
And hand me downs
It was just a few years ago
You'd hand me ups and map
Right out of town
But I would let it slide
Like mercury
Silver and quick
Poisonous and deadly
So deadly 


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g28Gbm49Bek

Fool Of Me (with lyrics), Meshell Ndegeocello

Desperate Hours

Desperate Hours

by Malachi

(R. Jones/M. Trofa/G.Nigro/A. Carbo III/G.Scheffler)

Verse 1:

They say your heart is cold and shallow.

 And your soul is there, but hollow.

Your expression is hard and callous.

(bridge) The feeling is gone from your life.

Thanks to the grief, the fights and your strife.

(chorus) Now it's all just desperate hours, the body cowers.

 It's all just desperate hours, like Satan's power.

 It's all just desperate hours, like brittle flowers.

Now it's, desperate hours.

Verse 2:

They say your eyes are empty glasses.

 And you stare as your life passes.

 Your obsession with God has passed.

 (bridge 2)

The words that you speak are not true.

Why do you look with all the world's view?

(repeat chorus)

Verse 3:

You say you'll live with just a small taste.

 And your crime is that you're two faced.

 Deviation has been your downfall.

(bridge 3)

The way that you live is not much.

 God's gonna heal with his touch.

(Repeat Chorus)

Now it's Desperate Hours

Faithless..

  But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came. The other disciples therefore said unto him, We have seen the LORD. But he said unto them, Except I shall see in his hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and thrust my hand into his side, I will not believe. And after eight days again his disciples were within, and Thomas with them: then came Jesus, the doors being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, Peace be unto you. Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and thrust it into my side: and be not faithless, but believing.

John 20:24-27 (King James Version)

Watch What You Say/All Up In My Grill

No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is of me, saith the LORD. Isaiah 54:17 (KJV)

I really needed this today.  I feel the flaming arrows of hate pursuing me.  Satan is and always will remain busy. I stand on my Savior and his promises.

The LORD is my light and my salvation;
         Whom shall I fear?
         The LORD is the strength of my life;
         Of whom shall I be afraid?
 When the wicked came against me
         To eat up my flesh,
         My enemies and foes,
         They stumbled and fell.
 Though an army may encamp against me,
         My heart shall not fear;
         Though war may rise against me,
         In this I will be confident. 
Psalms 27:1-3


I don't think those who plot and conspire against me understand. I serve a Savior who conquered death and Hell. What you throw up against me is like fodder. 
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